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By Laura Gibson © 2018
My first lucid dream was not the typical first lucid dream a lot of people have, when you realise you are awake within the dream and get so incredibly excited you wake up straight away. No, my first lucid dream was very different. I was unable to move my body at all. I was being strangled by an unknown and unseen force. I felt scared that I might die as I could strongly feel my life-force energy getting smaller and smaller within my body. Suddenly I realised I was in a dream.
Upon realising this, rather than getting excited that I am awake within my dream, I simply relaxed and thought, “Well, it’s just a dream so no need to feel fear that I am being strangled . . . plus I can’t actually move anyway, so I might as well enjoy.”
I wasn’t anywhere strange in the dream. I was where my body was — in my bed, in my bedroom — which was set out as it was normally, from what I could tell from my limited view.
I could still feel this life-force energy getting smaller and smaller in my body, almost like a ball shrinking in size. It wasn’t painful, I just felt my body was becoming weaker and weaker. But now that I was awake in the dream, there was also this other feeling which was getting bigger and bigger, as the life-force energy was getting smaller and smaller.
This feeling was magnificent, the best feeling I have ever felt . . . EVER! It was like an orgasmic wave which engulfed my body. All I wanted to do was go with this feeling; it felt SO amazing.
I started to feel really safe, to feel that I was loved, and in a way I was returning home (I know it sounds weird but it’s what I felt). There was also a light around me which was getting brighter. I tried to see what was strangling me by trying to tilt my head forward, which took a huge effort to move it, even a tiny bit, but there was nothing there. I was on my back but slightly to my left with my body slightly crooked and my head forced back. I was pretty much paralysed.
I’m not sure how long this went on. It didn’t seem like very long and even though I was thoroughly enjoying this intense, incredible, orgasmic feeling which just kept getting bigger and more intense, a niggling thought trotted into my mind like a little ant and said, “Don’t people die in their sleep?”
I mean, you do hear of people dying in their sleep, don’t you? I thought, “How can I really be sure this isn’t how people die in their sleep? Maybe they had the same thought as me within the dream, that it’s ‘just a dream’ but then they actually die!”
I said to myself, “I don’t want to die and how can I be sure I won’t?” The feeling of the life force energy getting smaller in my body felt so real. The thought was enough to force me to wake myself up, and I did, but I had to concentrate and loudly say to myself, “WAKE UP!”
The minute I woke up I felt a little relief that I was still alive but then all I wanted to do was go back to the dream and feel that amazing feeling again. I’m still not sure what the dream represented but it was an incredible experience.